Friday!

Ah!! I'm so happy its Friday. I really don't know how other people go on without a break or a rest. I am so happy to just chill.

Today was pretty good, started it off with morning stuff, then went to work, I got to exercise via fun and friendly sports this afternoon and then worship and bible study this evening. Today was pretty nicely balanced as far as that goes.

So the best things about most Fridays for me is vespers. I LOVE it :) but tonight i was not in the right mood for the speaker (actually idk if i ever would be in the right mood for him) he was as he put it a "gangsta" pastor. With various smart witty remarks and various jokes he wooed most of the audience into a light borderline of mocking atmosphere. It really irritated me for the majority of the time but a friend reminded me to try to listen to get something out of it. And surprisingly *or maybe not so surprisingly*  I did.  The concept of how free we really are, in Jesus that is. When He died he gave all for us and paid for all sins that we have done, and might/will do, if we accept His gift. Its that's simple. We are free in Him, yet we live a life of bondage. I had some time to reflect afterwards, and honestly what I see in myself is not pretty. I get grumpy and snippy with people, my words hurt more than heal, and in general I can be a really mean person in many little ways. (and several big ones). Also while maintaining a happy outward appearance, I can fume on the inside (of which there is evidence here on this blog)  Yet,  my journey, my life isn't about all of the mistakes and failures, nor is it about my success' and victories.  It isn't about what I can and cant do. Rather It is all  about Him. About His life changing power, and the fact that He is the "author and finisher of my faith".  It is about His ability and willingness to dedicate time to spend molding and shaping me.
Hmm Simple truth, yet one I often forget.
He has a path for me, one that is uncut and unique to my life, He wants to guide me down it, but in the end its my choice to accept His grace and be dedicated to change...

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson