Defense

Sorry i have been so spotty on writing on here. Another writing eperiment has taken up my time and while I suppose I could copy those notes over to here with some minor adjustments - meh - its to much work lol.
 Anyways the newest thing in my life has been a short Self Defense class offered here at the University - its Free (the college students favorite 4 letter word starting with F) and has been really beneficial to my cofidence level. I use to take risks - do stupid things - with a facade of cofidence that would make some friends shudder - Now I can more confidently  step in and take risks - with knowledge of how to defend myself if the situation arose... its pretty epic lol. (Although that is not to say I shouldn't be counting my costs a bit more and yes in all honestly being a little bit more careful in my daily life *Ahem*  but that is a topic for another day)

Moving on. . .

Work has been good - its nice to be feeling better and thus working all 8 hours as planned. It can get a bit boring but for the most part I don't seem to run out of things to think about -  debate for today was - "what makes a villain into a villain ?"  Why is the "bad guy" bad ? - didn't come to any major conculsions - beyond the fact is if you refuse to look at any situation from any angle but your own, you are setting yourself up to possibly be on unstable ground. - I guess the main characteristic I found in the "bad guys" (from kids movies, stories and history) is this intense drive to do something self-gratifying (ruling the world, getting personal revenge etc) with an intense dedication level/stubbornness - which almost always led to their demise. Now then I know that the bad guys are bad etc, but in all honestly I did have to cede one point - they were in most cases more sure about their hair brained and wicked ideas than the good guys were about their sane, and safe plans - the bad guys for some reason always have a macho confidence level that most "heroes" seem to lack.
One of my Favorite Authors is Victor Hugo - In both of his more famous works, Les Miserables and Hunchback of Notre Dame - He really takes time to flesh out the "bad guy" as a reader and self appointed Critic - I LOVE IT - I find myself caring as much about his "bad guy" characters and their journey (which still ends traditionally in most cases) as I care about the "heroes" journey.
 Anyways... I will spare you my ramblings of examples and counter examples - but it is sufficient to say that my thoughts at work were an interesting debating and sorting out of this random topic.

Bad guys don't think they're bad guys. Hitler probably thought he was a wonderful guy doing some wonderful and righteous work for Germany. --- Martin Landau